Thursday, January 18, 2007

Who the hell called Racheal Ray?

And told her I was getting a divorce? Today, now this admits I have watched her show, she had on Lance Armstrong's ex-wife talking about her new book "When Happily Ever After Ends." (Listen, it was another snow day from work so all crappy TV watching is a must) It is about the first year after your divorce and all the hideous things you go through. Now I have a sneaking suspicion her first year after divorce is going to be markedly different from the one I'll experience. For instance, I don't live on the French Rivera, I'm sure that might help one get through those hard times unlike living in the constant gray and rainy Northwest will. Maybe it's just me, I doubt it though.

Last night he came over to get some of his stuff and I was trying my hardest to be nice and agreeable, that got me nowhere but in tears. Why do I allow him to hurt my feelings any more? He said he was getting an attorney because I threatened to get a restraining order on him. What I actually said is that I COULD get one if I wanted based on his anger/rage problems, and this was said out of immense anger on my own part trying to hurt him. But now he's all gung ho about it and insists on being an a-hole about everything. I'm not sure when I should tell him that any equity he is allowed in this house will be wiped out by the debt we incurred while he didn't have a job and we had to buy freakin' groceries on the credit card. Maybe I won't and just let him waste that money he doesn't have. But that isn't in my nature and I don't want to become the bitter wife who keeps stuff like that to myself. However, if he wants to start the fight I'm more than willing to finish it like my father always taught me to.

When does it get easier and when do people start acting like humans again?

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